I might learn slow but I am not dumb

The old law about an eye for an eye leaves everybody blind.'Martin Luther King Jr. (1929-1968)

My life is not pefect at all this quote means something, should to all of us who have sinned over another human...People are blind in this culture we do not think about how our attitutes refect who we are as people. I was not built for jugement, I pefer to hear all people sides we have stories from so many diffrent prostectives. Just think about Martin Luther and his most powerful statement 'I have a dream' we all have dreams we wish to change our world, Its a known fact I wish racism was never a thing. How about why was Martin Luther king jr killed? why was such a strong powerful 'ebony man' killed? maybe i am not black and white But how many more good black people need to be killed? 

I like being blind better this seeing sometimes beacuse what we see is a blind eye. How is this fair to allow such a strungle ? How can people compair themselfs to others? My life I have lived has not been "ok" 

My "nigger" to show it takes being punched in the face protecting the race I love so much Can I say something My father is a big replican, I do his way of life and hey I love living as a bad example...

look whose mixed? who are these two people?

I'm not like that bad guy or woman guess which two?

Ever know when it is time to go just beacuse its right, two babies and unable to offered them your always going to be a family "scape-goat" how does it feel to know these boys have been let down to...

Motherhood is diffrent for all of us, I always Kaleb johnson things would be diffrent for us. Oh boy was I wrong with him I believe I was so much more forgetfull My mind was so into the idea of a "being with a man" at that time I felt so confused about how I was rasied wanted to show you there are woman in other places with much less or nothing. And yet I sit here with the loss of two son's is that right?
There was one time I had both a great connection between two-step brothers, now They can't stand eachother at all who is to blame?
besides that I was drunk so much before kaleb came to earth and maybe I see why I made the choice to so slective in my life The day dated 'austin worden king' he was so mean to kaleb and me I walked down to pick up my other child I came back to 'bite marks' on his body so it may have took me a few weeks to see he was not right for me but who knew actally looking into these 'other woman' and the fact I dumped him because he favored on one child over the other. Kaleb is a bright child he has himself has been harmed by a horriable abusive man.
How does it feel to kaleb and I are now looked down on by police men and woman who take a oath for what? believe me when I say I know abuse and not to be believed at all its hard to believe my whole life someone would use us to spill blood shead in a family..kaleb is high functioning yes he may be unable to poo in the potty just think about what his whole life is wasted on ? I've invested in him so much emotionally now feel turned away by own son who believe's in Moses some how I am him I believe in god because of
Isaac Johnson the best suprise in my life I made the choice to take god more seriosuly Its sad I was friend with benfits with this charming handsome guy I hoped he was into me because he was the type into woman with kids. Believe me deniz was so drunk and 'lazy with a condom' let it be known Isaac was born with clamida believe me when I say just push natrually with kaleb not eveything was naturally at all but should I just take back that day I made the choice to be a mother for the second time? is it wrong that I am pro-life? just think of places where moms < don't have mom's having there back?
My mother and I got into a fight due to the fact she never protected me against my attacks in middle school by my third attack the one time she wants to help me let alone it was not even a guy who did it. Bar fight with a girl I had to stand up for a woman using profanity calling out the ebony race. Is this fair to me now I feel so pushed to leave the comminty You know how petaluma county has made the choice to close all doors for me end up with no luck.
Days I wish we never moved back at all I feel like I 've wasted years of my life finding a dude I am never going to be happy with at all. I've made so many 'wrong' choices in people I protect but is anyone protecting the right end goal? Kaleb and Isaac are victims in all this as well
My mother had no right to steal my kids as well I will always find a reason to leave...I'm so unhappy yes I've made two boys two diffrent baby-daddies don't put me down. The worst part isaac's father made sure I know six times in a hospital did not scare me off easy. Maybe he just should have said I don't love you what type of price do you put on love?
The only request I made from him is be apart of his sons life, now looks like my life is ruined for them both. I have nothing more to offer if why pretend
petaluma is not a very healthy establishment at all The fact they protect felons and phedophiles more..this town how does it feel i just 'mentally ill' I am on a 50153 I never want another man thus far. I have two sons that refuse to protect me anymore because of these lies you refuse to hear just my pleasure entrainment lie is enough to make me want to run away for good...grose to me makes me hate not following my own drugs rules anymore. I hope petaluma pd made the "collective' enough abuse to sue the petaluma pd. Or a fine fine ? because its not fine to protect bullies. Petaluma pd has no right to not protect a disbaled child..and allow the wrong person to get attention

How is the "nightingale" guy died is that ok?

something is really important is psychological war is one thing I know something about I've been fighting all my life I actually know what "fidelio" means maybe we can all learn something from eyes wide shut what does it really mean? I've also dropped out of college and look up to this "pino" player 

I've been so let down by the 'wedding' I can't stand the idea of a 'white sheet wedding' i am so embressed I am geing humliated by Matt Ball and Amanda V. They have no idea what its like to be me or how it feels that my children have also been through should I have been the one shut out? I prey everday not to get killed but daily I get 'treated badly' just to prove I am not a good mom. I am not into this town of high deceit. I am tready for a new location. 

I know what i've done is wrong hanging with underage sons, but I did not lie I am now ready to pardon ways and allow a "foster" mom to take over my two boys My lies are over flowing, I see no purpose here I know I don't my two boys don't deseve to be treated as badly I was I feel I have failed as a mom to my two gifted sons I on the inside know what "fidleo" means if you get this end all 'corrupt police' and maybe I would try harder to be my best self. I've seen people with less do best with there children. I prey one day My boys won't have to struggle as much as me and suffer as I did in school My true 'motive' I look up to my mother for graduation day she would not have gotten through school without my father there. I've been so let down See the how much the petaluma pd abuse me just look at this unhappy view 

I spend so much time preying to a real god since no one will talk about the list of decit I am not going to lie about "drug use" I just know petaluma pd should just watch out, I now need to find away to get out of town...this goal is working lets say I am a bad parent I just say I did tell you so, i've study petaluma more then you know
https://abc7news.com/news/police-say-convicted-sexual-predator-wont-be-paroled-in-petaluma/1272934/
why lie does this not lok like 'kaleb to me" oddly what did I step into? this is a nightmare petaluma is not a smart place to move imgain what it feels like to be shot off. tamptered food, the lack of massage palor's closing whats the point i'll die just to see OJ again..

Scape-goat How I handle "family Drama"

Often vistited mt fallen grandma "johnson" spent alot of time in senior care home just imagine what its like to be in one of those with all those I like This was'nt done well all my life I knew trama no one for a hand is better then getting revenge, very stong willing to die...

This is my prize please save "bianca johnson" as if I never were lets keep on the bullies side

Neglect kills injuries, revenge increases them

Job Resume Skills To Help Me Model

Teali Johnson

   58 Burlington Dr 

Petaluma CA 94952

  (707)-774-6582

Tealij85@me.com

Objective:  Obtain a position using my combined skills and passion my dream acting position

SKILLS AND ABILITIES

• 4 years experience working in a classroom as a paraprofessional
• Facilitated  groups with art projects and classroom assignments
• Administrative tasks:  filing, prepared lesson plans, made copies, and researched projects
• Supervised children on playground and aided with social skills
• Remains calm under pressure
• Patient, ability to diffuse conflicts
• Great Listening skills and observation skills
• Soft-skills 
• Emotional intelligence 
• Good Lister 
• Office Skills  
• Soft Skills 

WORK HISTORY

Instructional Assistant 2 – San Rafael City School San Rafael, CA- unknown time effects 

Encouraged student to explore learning opportunities or persevere with challenging tasks to prepare for later grades.   Employed special educational strategies or techniques during instruction to improve the development of sensory- and perceptual - motor skills, language, cognition, or memory as well as non-verbal. This was the best job of all, those kids changed my life after all 

List of a few students I helped out 

Misty triggs- I worked with her the logest till she was in 5th grade 

Berry pina-We would talk while I did yard duty 

Bajna -high functioning austim he opened my eyes 

Jacob- non-verbal agressive but I enjoyed working with him so much 

Tristan- he hold me to non-fiction stuff I worked so hard on trying to open his mind to "fantasy" but he was and is one of my favored students..

San Rafael Boys And Girls Club-                                     San Rafael Ca Date-Unknown time effects 

The fact I worked with the fifth grade team, I struggled helping each child out with math at the time. I struggled we had a meeting and changed it up, Someone helped me with the fifth grade team, I gave this group a party because they needed some extra time and support also I blamed myself for letting this team of boys and girls down “math” was my uncommon subject I will never forget what I had to go through while I worked this after school jobs, I took a whole new learning approach in life. Fifth Grade may not have been good for me,Is one thing I got.I learned to enjoy to fail their. 

                                                                 Community Service

                                                                                              

Petaluma people services center-                                                                      Petaluma, Ca 2015-2016

Program assistant with the Petaluma people services for a year, I would asset in welcoming new clients and making them feel comfortable with the new surrounding of intensive job search. Made copies, Helped with researching potential jobs. Figured out I wanted to go back to college at that time I wished to be a social worker is it fair to sit in a little room all day with computers, Then I’ve found out how the Petaluma Government does stuff “rigged” some people to get ahead in life, I miss it but I dream higher now. 

Petaluma Art Center-                                                                                          Petaluma Ca 2015-2016

Desk clerk kindly answered phones, and welcomed any guest who would  show up if they did at all and made any copies needed, greeted people warmly something I could have done everyday but It did not get busy, It was not busy at all if the phone would ring at all I would get happy. 

Homeless advocate- Current city                                                                          Petaluma Ca  Currently

 For my free time when i am on the streets i like to freely share my ear for free thearphy, help out anyway i can offer food and kinds to those in need, Its so cold outside maybe I should free up some space for one I have never seen so many people in need to relief and a home. Its interesting to so many felons get around on people. But sometimes they need a hand or an early…trust is limited 

Volunteering hillock creek- Unknown location I wish I could go back -2000-2009 

The place to me that felt like treasure was hillock creek riding club the disabled program we are like ranch hands,the best part was helping the disabled staff out groom there horses get them ready for a trail ride best experience of all 

Volunteering Since Middle school as in office aid in summer or I was a step in volunteering is something I thrive in and I am responsible dependable adult I loved working in the office at “Davidson middle school” I picked up phone filled out tardy slips and stepped in picking up attendance just to find out I’ve done the time and Nancy S would let me go early just to enjoy my time I have a mind built for school I seek more inclusion in special ed most children enabled do not learn well we also seek being liked by everyone else…School is not something that ruled my life but it has. 

EDUCATION

Childcare Courses - College of Marin   Kentfield, CA

Diploma – San Rafael High School               San Rafael, CA

Santa Rosa Junior College - N/A                                                                Petaluma, CA

                                                                   Objectives 

   My goal is to be an extra on a movie set look into me at explore talent.com . I sit around at home where I am in control. My name is Teali Sakura Johnson here is a fun way to spell my name Teal-eye my name means indian princess. I'd love to hold an actors ID one day Or a Model ID one day. Maybe a screen writer one day, I've just seen so much injust in this world. My biggest impression in life is "Eye's wide shut" I've been enjoyed films ever since I was little because math was never my strongest in learning. But Invest my time wisely in books and reading.I would delight in being an actor one day not just an "extra in a film" but you have to start somewhere. 

My purpose is to be part of something bigger then myself before I dropped out of school Meyers-Briggs played a huge part of my life I found out I was an "INFJ" foreal also the rarest or perosnality types.I've not lived a happy life the only time, I am happy is holding up on my end of mommy duites and at the moment I do not have any. 

I've had such a perosnal struggle all my life now the true me wants to run away and act. I know failing is something I do way anytime I get my mind on being sucsssful is either when I am volnteering or dreaming of spending time beinde bars one day because this community hates me so much. 

In conclusion I feel like a falier i've sold my soul and I've never been happy one day of my life, I am pretty sure I could be arressted due to all these lies that are not my falut but I am the scape-gaot in alot of trouble, I admire people that are honest and true I have nothing to hide try waking up every morning trying not to kill yourself. I've been a loner all my life and tourted and bullies by the jocks and even the geeks builled me the only time I am happy is when I am by myself. One good time when I was a lie here me as "biggest flirt." I everyone to know my truth and why I took all my unifce money. Imagin being poor and being called the milk mans baby please look inside me and tell me I am not good enough to be an "actor" Does anyone know why Johnthan Kennals dead?